"A Bit O' This & That" (2007)




What If Lyrics – Emilie autumn

Here you sit in your high-backed chair
Wonder how the view is from there
I wouldn't know 'cause I like to sit
Upon the floor, yeah upon the floor
If you like we could play a game
Let's pretend that we are the same
But you will have to look much closer
Than you do, closer than you do
And I'm far too tired to stay here anymore
And I don't care what you think anyway
'Cause I think you were wrong about me
Yeah what if you were, what if you were
And what if I'm a snowstorm burning
What if I'm a world unturning
What if I'm an ocean, far too shallow, much too deep
What if I'm the kindest demon
Something you may not believe in
What if I'm a siren singing gentlemen to sleep

I know you've got it figured out
Tell me what I am all about
And I just might learn a thing or two
Hundred about you, maybe about you
I'm the end of your telescope
I don't change just to suit your vision
'Cause I am bound by a fraying rope
Around my hands, tied around my hands
And you close your eyes when I say I'm breaking free
And put your hands over both your ears
Because you cannot stand to believe I'm not
The perfect girl you thought
Well what have I got to lose
And what if I'm a weeping willow
Laughing tears upon my pillow
What if I'm a socialite who wants to be alone
What if I'm a toothless leopard
What if I'm a sheepless shepherd
What if I'm an angel without wings to take me home

You don't know me
Never will, never will
I'm outside your picture frame
And the glass is breaking now
You can't see me
Never will, never will
If you're never gonna see
What if I'm a crowded desert
Too much pain with little pleasure
What if I'm the nicest place you never want to go
What if I don't know who I am
Will that keep us both from trying
To find out and when you have
Be sure to let me know
What if I'm a snowstorm burning
What if I'm a world unturning
What if I'm an ocean, far too shallow, much too deep
What if I'm the kindest demon
Something you may not believe in
What if I'm a siren singing gentlemen to sleep
Sleep...
Sleep...

Hollow Like My Soul Lyrics – Emilie autumn

Hollow like my soul

You think that you'll get by
You will die
You will cry
When you think that you'll survive
Just don't try
Run and hide
My eyes are hollow like my soul

You think that you'll get by
You will die
You will cry
When you think that you'll survive
Just don't try
Run and hide
My eyes are hollow like my soul

Just as I was walking by
My soul died
My heart cried
When you think that you'll survive
Just don't try
Run and hide
My eyes are hollow like my soul

So many times I ask myself
So many times I wonder why
So many times I ask myself
So many times I wonder why

You think that you'll get by
You will die
You will die
When you think that you'll survive
Just don't try
Run and hide
My eyes are hollow like my soul
My eyes are hollow like my soul

Hollow like my soul
You think that you'll get by
You will die
You will cry
When you think that you'll survive
Just don't try
Run and hide
Run and hide
Run and hide

By The Sword Lyrics – Emilie autumn

"Days of old"
I tell my restless mind
Searching mountains
Fields
And meadows green
What is it
My heart can hope to find
All that I long for
I have never seen
Tales of glory written in the dust
Tapestries of deepest purple gold
Legends carved in stone
Tell me I must
Journey through the mist
And bitter cold

But in this brotherhood
I still believe
And for the ones we've lost
My soul will grieve
Yet through the world alone I wander
For I know somewhere
I will find my brothers
By the sword
I swear

In my memory
Awakening
Like a dream too sweet
To cast away
Shadows of the past begin to sing
Calling out to me
In their gallant way
Come away with us
Brother in arms
Through the seas of silver
Fields of gold
Join us as we battle those who harm
And fight with valour as
In days of old

But in this brotherhood
I still believe
And for the ones we've lost
My soul will grieve
Yet through the world alone I wander
For I know somewhere
I will find my brothers
By the sword
I swear

Seeking in the corners of the earth
My companions
I have never known
Blindly running forth
Is honor worth
Endless hours of silence spent
Alone?

But in this brotherhood
I still believe
And for the ones we've lost
My soul will grieve
Yet through the world alone I wander
For I know somewhere
I will find my brothers
By the sword
I swear

Rescue damsels fine
And maidens fair
Free the noble
Who have done no wrong
Though it seems the world
May little care
Some are left that to
The Round belong

But in this brotherhood
We still believe
(I still believe)
And for the ones we've lost
Our souls will grieve
(My soul will grieve)
Yet through the world alone we wander
For we know somewhere
We will find our brothers
By the sword we swear

By the sword I swear
I will find my brothers
I will find my sisters
I will find my brothers
I will find my sisters
By the sword I swear

I Don't Care Much Lyrics – Emilie autumn

I don't care much
Go or stay
I don't care very much
Either way
Hearts grow hard
On a windy street
Lips grow cold
With the rent to meet

So if you kiss me
If we touch
Warning's fair
I don't care very much

I don't care much
Go or stay
I don't care
Very much
Either way
Words sound false
When your coat's too thin
Feet don't waltz
When the roof caves in

So if you kiss me
If we touch
Warning's fair
I don't care very much

I don't care much
Go or stay
I don't care
Very much
Either way
Words sound false
When your coat's too thin
Feet don't waltz
When the roof caves in

So if you kiss me
If we touch
Warning's fair
I don't care very much

Warning's fair
I don't care very much
Go or stay...

I Know It's Over (Live) (originally by The Smiths) Lyrics – Emilie autumn

Oh Mother, I can feel the soil falling over my head
And as I climb into an empty bed
Oh well. Enough said.
I know it's over - still I cling
I don't know where else I can go
Oh...
Oh Mother, I can feel the soil falling over my head
See, the sea wants to take me
The knife wants to slit me
Do you think you can help me?
Sad veiled bride, please be happy
Handsome groom, give her room
Loud, loutish lover, treat her kindly
(Though she needs you
More than she loves you)
And I know it's over - still I cling
I don't know where else I can go
Over and over and over and over
Over and over, la...
I know it's over
And it never really began
But in my heart it was so real
And you even spoke to me, and said...
"If you're so funny
Then why are you on your own tonight?
And if you're so clever
Then why are you on your own tonight?
If you're so very entertaining
Then why are you on your own tonight?
If you're so very good-looking
Why do you sleep alone tonight?
I know...
'Cause tonight is just like any other night
That's why you're on your own tonight
With your triumphs and your charms
While they're in each other's arms..."
It's so easy to laugh
It's so easy to hate
It takes strength to be gentle and kind
Over, over, over, over
It's so easy to laugh
It's so easy to hate
It takes guts to be gentle and kind
Over, over
Love is natural and real
But not for you, my love
Not tonight, my love
Love is natural and real
But not for such as you and I, my love
Oh Mother, I can feel the soil falling over my head
Oh Mother, I can feel the soil falling over my head
Oh Mother, I can feel the soil falling over my head
Oh Mother, I can feel the soil falling over my...
Oh Mother, I can feel the soil falling over my head
Oh Mother, I can even feel the soil falling over my head
Oh Mother, I can feel the soil falling over my head
Oh Mother, I can feel the soil falling over my...

Find Me A Man Lyrics – Emilie autumn

Find me a man who would die for me
Find me a time that is past
Find me an ocean without a sea
And I will follow at last

Find me a man who would die for me
Find me a time that is past
Find me an ocean without a sea
And I will follow at last

Find me a man

Find me a man who would die for me
Find me a time that is past
Find me an ocean without a sea
And I will follow at last

Find me a man who would die for me
Find me a time that is past
Find me an ocean without a sea
And I will follow at last

Find me a man who would die for me
Find me a time that is past
Find me an ocean without a sea
And I will follow at last

Find me a man

Find me a man who would die for me
Find me a time that is past

O Mistress Mine Lyrics – Emilie autumn

O mistress mine, where are you roaming?
O stay and hear! Your true love's coming
That can sing both high and low;
Trip no further, pretty sweeting,
Journeys end in lovers meeting,
Every wise man's son doth know.

What is love? 'Tis not hereafter;
Present mirth hath present laughter;
What's to come is still unsure...
In delay there lies no plenty;
Then come kiss me, Sweet-and-twenty,
Youth's a stuff will not endure.

The Star Spangled Banner Lyrics – Emilie autumn

Oh, say can you see by the dawn's early light
What so proudly we hailed at the twilight's last gleaming?
Whose broad stripes and bright stars thru the perilous fight,
O'er the ramparts we watched were so gallantly streaming?
And the rocket's red glare, the bombs bursting in air,
Gave proof through the night that our flag was still there.
Oh, say does that star-spangled banner yet wave
O'er the land of the free and the home of the brave?

All My Loving (originally by The Beatles) Lyrics – Emilie autumn

Close your eyes and I'll kiss you
Tomorrow I'll miss you
Remember I'll always be true
And then while I'm away
I'll write home every day
And I'll send all my loving to you

I'll pretend that I'm kissing
The lips I am missing
And I'll pray that my dreams will come true
And then while I'm away
I'll write home every day
And I'll send all my loving to you

All my loving, I will send to you
All my loving, darling I'll be true

Close your eyes and I'll kiss you
Tomorrow I'll miss you
You know that I'll always be true
And then while I'm away
I'll write home every day
And I'll send all my loving to you

All my loving, I will send to you
All my loving, darling I'll be true
All my loving, all my loving
Woo, all my loving, I will send to you

With Every Passing Day Lyrics – Emilie autumn

With every passing day,
I close my eyes and say...
"Here it comes, that happy ending,
Sending me on my way."

It's just a game I play,
Dreaming my life away.
Though I know my day is passing,
With every passing day.

Daydreams that fly so far,
Melt all my fears away.
Though I know my day is passing,
With every passing day.

Miss Lucy Had Some Leeches Lyrics – Emilie autumn

Miss Lucy had some leeches
Her leeches liked to suck
And when they drank up all her blood
She didn't give a

Funny when the doctors
Had locked her in her cell
Miss Lucy screamed all night that they
Should go to bloody

Hello to the surgeon
With scalpel old and blunt
He'll tie you to the table
Then he'll mutilate your

Come it's nearly teatime
The lunatics arrive
The keepers bleed them all until
There's no one left a

Lively little rodents
Are eaten up by cats
We're subject to experiments
Like laboratory

Rats I've dropped a teacup
How easily they break
I'm on my hands and knees until
I pay for my mis-

Take off all your clothing
We've only just begun
We have no anesthesia
It's eighteen forty

One thing we should tell you
Before you try again
The tests are invented by
A lot of filthy

Mentally hysteric
She's failed the exam
Don't bother telling Lucy for
She doesn't give a

Damn that's nitrous oxide
For when you can't escape
They say the surgeons oft commit
A murder or a

Razor-blades are rusty
And not a lot of fun
So when they try to amputate
Your legs you'd better

Run and fetch the chemist
A patient's feeling sad
She's been in chains for ages
And she isn't even

Madness is a nuisance
And no one is immune
Your sister, mum or daughter
May become a raving

Lunatics are dangerous
And doctors are obeyed
They also go together just
Like toast and marma-

Ladies are like children
With brains the size of squirrels
Let's give a clitoridectomies
To all the little

Girls are helpless treasures
That daddies must protect
So lie upon the table
For the doctors to in-

Speculums are super
And stirrups all the rage
So spread a lady's legs and then put her
Back in to her

Cage of naked crazies
The surgeon's here to bleed
The doctors are all learned men
And some can even

Reading can be risky
For women on the verge
It only did us worlds of good
To poison, leech and

Purging is a penance
Phlebotomy's a chore
No need to sterilize the tools
We never did be-

Fore the night is over
Before you go to bed
They'll take a hammer and nail
And jam it in your

Headstones in the courtyard
And statues in the park
Are not for the insane
Just leave them rotting in the

D A R K
dark
dark
dark
dark
dark

Photographic Memory Lyrics – Emilie autumn

You're not so far away
You're sitting in the space between the night and day
And so I'll wait for the sound of your footsteps
The tea that's brewed too strong
The part of me that's waited patiently for oh so long
At least I try
But I'm relying
On my photographic memory
While painfully realizing
It's not all that it's cracked up to be
And falling's just another way to fly
I wonder why it's never easier than
The first time

Crazy He Calls Me Lyrics – Emilie autumn

I say I'll move the mountains
And I'll move the mountains
If he wants them out of the way
Crazy he calls me
Sure, I'm crazy
Crazy in love I say

I say I'll go through fire
And I'll go through fire
As he wants it, so shall it be
Crazy he calls me
Sure, I'm crazy
Crazy in love, you see

Like the wind that shakes the bough
He moves me with a smile
The difficult I'll do right now
The impossible will take a little while

I say I'll care forever
And I mean forever
If I have to hold up the sky
Crazy he calls me
Fuck, I'm crazy
Crazy in love am I

Crazy in love am I
I'm...in love
I'm in love

"Opheliac" (2006)




Opheliac Lyrics – Emilie autumn

I'm your Opheliac
I've been so disillusioned
I know you'd take me back
But still I feigned confusion
I couldn't be your friend
My world was too unstable
You might have seen the end

But you were never able
To keep me breathing
As the water rises up again
Before I slip away

You know the games I play
And the words I say
When I want my own way
You know the lies I tell
When you've gone through hell
And I say I can't stay
You know how hard it can be
To keep believing in me
When everything and everyone
Becomes my enemy and when
There's nothing more you can do
I'm gonna blame it on you
It's not the way I want to be
I only hope that in the end you will see
It's the Opheliac in me
It's the Opheliac in me

I'm your Opheliac
My stocking prove my virtues
I'm open to attack
But I don't want to hurt you
Whether I swim or sink
That's no concern of yours now
How could you possibly think

You had the power to know how
To keep me breathing
As the water rises up again
Before I slip away

You know the games I play
And the words I say
When I want my own way
You know the lies I tell
When you've gone through hell
And I say I can't stay
You know how hard it can be
To keep believing in me
When everything and everyone
Becomes my enemy and when
There's nothing more you can do
I'm gonna blame it on you
It's not the way I want to be
I only hope that in the end you will see
It's the Opheliac in me
It's the Opheliac in me

Studies Show...
Intelligent girls are more depressed
Because they know
What the world is really like
Don't think for a beat it makes it better
When you sit her down and tell her
Everything's gonna all right
She knows in society she either is
A devil or an angel with no in between
She speaks in third person
So she can forget that she's me

Doubt thou the stars are fire
Doubt thou the sun doth move
Doubt truth to be a liar
But never doubt

Doubt thou the stars are fire
Doubt thou the sun doth move
Doubt truth to be a liar
But never doubt

Doubt thou the stars are fire
Doubt thou the sun doth move
Doubt truth to be a liar
But never doubt I love

You know the games I play
And the words I say
When I want my own way
You know the lies I tell
When you've gone through hell
And I say I can't stay
You know how hard it can be
To keep believing in me
When everything and everyone
Becomes my enemy and when
There's nothing more you can do
I'm gonna blame it on you
It's not the way I want to be
I only hope that in the end you will see
But never doubt

You know the games I play
And the words I say
When I want my own way
You know the lies I tell
When you've gone through hell
And I say I can't stay
You know how hard it can be
To keep believing in me
When everything and everyone
Becomes my enemy and when
There's nothing more you can do
I'm gonna blame it on you
It's not the way I want to be
I only hope that in the end you will see

Swallow Lyrics – Emilie autumn

I will swallow
If it will help my sea level go down
But I'll come back to haunt you if I drown
I will swallow
If it will help my sea level go down
But I'll come back to haunt you if I drown
I will swallow
I will...
I will swallow

I'll tell the truth all of my songs
Are pretty much the fucking same
I'm not a faerie but I need
More than this life so I became
This creature representing more to you
Than just another girl
And if I had a chance to change my mind
I wouldn't for the world
Twenty years
Sinking slowly
Can I trust you
But I don't want to

I will swallow
If it will help my sea level go down
But I'll come back to haunt you if I drown
I will swallow
If it will help my sea level go down
I'll take a deep, deep breath
But I'll come back to haunt you if I drown
I will swallow
I will...
I will swallow

I don't want to be a legend
Oh well that's a god-damned lie, I do
To say I do this for the people
I admit is hardly true
You tell me everything's all right
As though it's something you've been through
You think this torment is romantic
Well it's not, except to you
Twenty years
Sinking slowly
Can I trust you
But I don't want to

I will swallow
If it will help my sea level go down
But I'll come back to haunt you if I drown
I will swallow
If it will help my sea level go down
I'll take a deep, deep breath
But I'll come back to haunt you if I drown
I will swallow
I will...
I will swallow

Low tide and high tea
The oysters are waiting for me
If I'm not there on time
I'll send my emissary
If I photoshop you
Out of every picture I could
Go quietly, quiet
But would that do any good

Will it hurt? No it won't
Then what am I so afraid of
Filthy Victorians
They made me what I'm made of
The brighter the light
The darker the shadow
I don't need a minder
I've made up my mind
Go away
Twenty years
Sinking slowly
But can I trust you
But I don't want to

I will swallow
If it will help my sea level go down
But I'll come back to haunt you if I drown
I will swallow
If it will help my sea level go down
I'll take a deep, deep breath
But I'll come back to haunt you if I drown

I will swallow
If it will help my sea level go down
But I'll come back to haunt you if I drown
I will swallow
If it will help my sea level go down
I'll take a deep, deep breath
But I'll come back to haunt you if I drown

I will swallow
If it will help my sea level go down
But I'll come back to haunt you if I drown
I will swallow
If it will help my sea level go down
I'll take a deep, deep breath
But I'll come back to haunt you if I drown
I will swallow
I will...
I will swallow

I'll take a deep, deep breath
I'll take a deep...
I'll take a deep...

Liar Lyrics – Emilie autumn

I want to hold you to the sun
I want to be your faithful one
I want to show you all the beauty
You don't even know you hold
I'm hurting you for your own good
I'd die for you, you know I would
I'd give up all my wealth
To buy you back the soul you never sold

I want to mix our blood
And put it in the ground
So you can never leave
I want to earn your trust
Your faith, your heart
You'll never be deceived

Liar, liar, liar, liar
Liar, liar, liar, liar
Liar, liar, liar, liar
Liar, liar, liar, liar
Liar
Liar

I want to heal you pretty sweet
I'll throw rose petals at your feet
I'll spend eternity
Comparing all my poetry to yours
I want to see love through your eyes
You'll never have to compromise
I'd give up all my fame
To fight your demons and your bloody wars

I want to mix our blood
And put it in the ground
So you can never leave
I want to earn your trust
Your faith, your heart
You'll never be deceived

Liar, liar, liar, liar
Liar, liar, liar, liar
Liar, liar, liar, liar
Liar, liar, liar, liar
Liar
Liar

Are you suffering?
Are you suffering?
Are you suffering?
Are you suffering?
Are you suffering?
Are you suffering?
Are you suffering?
Are you suffering?

Are you suffering?
I want your suffering
I want your beautiful suffering
I want to see your pain
Are you suffering?
I want your suffering
I want your beautiful suffering
I want to see your pain
Are you suffering?
I want your suffering
I want your beautiful suffering
I want to see your pain
Are you suffering?
I want your suffering
I want your beautiful suffering
I want it
I want it

I want to mix our blood
And put it in the ground
So you can never leave
I want to earn your trust
Your faith, your heart
You'll never be deceived

I want to mix our blood
And put it in the ground
So you can never leave
I want to earn your trust
Your faith, your heart
You'll never be deceived

Liar, liar, liar, liar
Liar, liar, liar, liar
Liar, liar, liar, liar
Liar, liar, liar, liar
Liar
Liar
Liar
Liar

I want to mix our blood
And put it in the ground
So you can never leave
I want to mix our blood
And put it in the ground
So you can never leave
I want to mix our blood
And put it in the ground
So you can never leave
I want to mix our blood
And put it in the ground
So you can never leave

The Art Of Suicide Lyrics – Emilie autumn

The art of suicide, nightgowns and hair
Curls flying every which way
The fate to pure to hide
Ridges of size
Meant to conceal lover's lies

Under the arches of moonlight and sky
Suddenly easy to contemplate why, why
Why live a life
That's painted with pity and sadness and strife
Why dream a dream
That's tainted with trouble and less than it seems
Why bother bothering
Just for a poem or another sad song to sing
Why live a lie
Why live a lie

The art of suicide, gritty and clean
Conveys a theatrical scene
Alas, 'I've gone' she cried
Veins displayed
Melodramatically laid

Under the arches of moonlight and sky
Suddenly easy to contemplate why, why
Why live a life
That's painted with pity and sadness and strife
Why dream a dream
That's tainted with trouble and less than it seems
Why bother bothering
Just for a poem or another sad song to sing
Why live a lie
Why live a lie

Why live a life
That's painted with pity and sadness and strife
Why dream a dream
That's tainted with trouble and less than it seems
Why bother bothering
Just for a poem or another sad song to sing
Why live a lie
Why live a lie
Why live a lie
Why live a lie

Life is not like gloomy Sunday
With a second ending where the people are disturbed
Well they should be disturbed
Because there's a story that ought to be heard
Life is not like gloomy Sunday
With a second ending where the people are disturbed
Well they should be disturbed
Because there's a lesson that really ought to be learned

The world is full of poets
We don't need anymore
The world is full of singers
We don't need anymore
The world is full of lovers
We don't need anymore

I Want My Innocence Back Lyrics – Emilie autumn

I want my innocence back
And if you can't give it to me
I will cut you down
And I will run you through
With the dagger you sharpened
On my body and soul
Before you slit me in two
And then devoured me whole

I want my innocence back
I want my innocence back
I want my innocence back
I want my innocence back
I want my innocence back
I want my innocence back

I want my innocence back
And if you can't pacify me
I will break your bones
You think I'm bluffing just try me
I will never forget
The words you used to ensnare me
Till my dying day
You'll suffer for this I swear

I want my innocence back
I want my innocence back
I want my innocence back
I want my innocence back
I want my innocence back
I want my innocence back

And I demand
You put my heart back in my hand
And wipe it clean
From the mess you made of me
And I require
You make me free from this desire
And when you leave, I'd better be the innocent
I used to be

I want my innocence back
I want my innocence back
I want my innocence back
I want my innocence back
I want my innocence back
I want my innocence back
I want my innocence back
I want my innocence back
I want my innocence back
I want my innocence back

Misery Loves Company Lyrics – Emilie autumn

It's not the time
It's not the place
I'm just another pretty face
So don't come any closer
You're not the first
You're not the last
How many more?
Don't even ask
You're one more dead composer

Do I need you?
Yes and no
Do I want you?
Maybe so
You're getting warm
You're getting warm
You're getting warmer, oh, oh, oh
Did you plan this all along
Did you care if was wrong
Who's getting warmer now
That I'm gone

Misery loves company
And company loves more
More loves everybody else
But hell is others

Misery loves company
And company loves more
More loves everybody else
But hell is others

I'm not for you
You're not for me
I'll kill you first
You wait and see
You devil undercover
You're not a prince
You're not a friend
You're just a child
And in the end
You're one more selfish lover

Do I need you?
Yes and no
Do I want you?
Maybe so
You're getting warm
You're getting warm
You're getting warmer, oh, oh, oh
Did you plan this all along
Did you care if was wrong
Who's getting warmer now
That I'm gone

Misery loves company
And company loves more
More loves everybody else
But hell is others

Misery loves company
And company loves more
More loves everybody else
But hell is others

You're so easy to read
But the book is boring me
You're so easy to read
But the book is boring
You're so easy to read
But the book is boring
Boring, boring, boring, boring, boring
Boring me

Pray for me if you want to
Pray for me if you care
Pray for me f your want to
Pray for me if you dare
Pray for me if you want to
Pray for me if you care
Pray for me if you want to
Pray for me you fucker if you fucking dare

Misery loves company
And company loves more
More loves everybody else
But hell is others

Misery loves company
And company loves more
More loves everybody else
But hell is others

Misery loves company
And company loves more
More loves everybody else
But hell is others

Misery loves company
And company loves more
More loves everybody else
But hell is others

God Help Me Lyrics – Emilie autumn

God help me
I don't see how I can live this way
And I don't know why he's touching me
Won't you shine in my direction and help me?
Won't you lend me your protection and help me?

God help me
Believe me, this wasn't what I wanted
But no, I can't leave, he's got me
Won't you shine in my direction and help me?
Won't you lend me your protection and help me?

Am I guilty or am I just waiting around
For the tide to come in so the truth can come out
And if I had a dollar for every time
I repented the sin and commit the same crime
I'd be sitting on top of the world today
I'd be sitting on top of the world today

God, God help me
Just maybe I'll learn to help myself
Speak to me, don't leave me, he's burning me
Won't you shine in my direction and help me?
Won't you lend me your protection and help me?

Places, everyone, this is a test
Throw you stones, do your damage, your worst
And your best, all the world is a judge
But that doesn't compare to what I do to myself
When you're not there
And if I had a dollar for every time
I repented the sin and commit the same crime
I'd be sitting on top of the world today
I'd be sitting on top of the world today

Don't make me choose, I've got too much to lose
Don't make me choose, I've got too much to lose
Don't make me choose, I've got too much to lose
Don't make me choose, I've got to much to fucking lose

For I am with you, and also with you
For I am with you, and also with you

God help me, God help me, God help me, God help me
God help me, God help me, God help me, God help me...

God help me, God help me, God help me, God help me
God help me, God help me, God help me, God help me...

God help me, God help me, God help me, God help me
God help me, God help me, God help me, God help me...

God help me, God help me, God help me, God help me
God help me, God help me, God help me, God help me...

God help me, God help me, God help me, God help me
God help me, God help me, God help me, God help me...

God help me, God help me, God help me, God help me
God help me, God help me, God help me, God help me...

God, God help me, God help me,
God help me, God help me
God help me, God help me

Shalott Lyrics – Emilie autumn

She's locked up with a spinning wheel
She can't recall what it was like to feel
She says, 'This room's gonna be my grave
And there is no one who can save me.'
She sits down to her coloured thread
She knows lovers waking up in their bed
She says, 'How long can I live this way
Is there no on I can pay to let me go
'Cause I'm half sick of shadows
I wanna see the sky
Everyone else can watch as the sun goes down
So why can't I

And it's raining
And the stars are falling from the sky
And the wind
And the wind I know it's cold
I've been waiting
For the day I will surely die
And it's here
And it's here for I've been told
That I'll die before I'm old
And the wind I know it's cold...

She looks up to the mirrored glass
She sees a handsome horse and rider pass
She say, 'That man's gonna be my death
'Cause he's all I ever wanted in my life
And I know he doesn't know my name
And that all the girls are all the same to him
But still I've got to get out of this place
'Cause I don't think I can face another night
Where I'm half sick of shadows
And I can't see the sky
Everyone else can watch as the tide comes in
So why can't I

And it's raining
And the stars are falling from the sky
And the wind
And the wind I know it's cold
I've been waiting
For the day I will surely die
And it's here
And it's here for I've been told
That I'll die before I'm old
And the wind I know it's cold...

But there's willow trees
And little breezes, waves and walls and flowers
And there's moonlight every single night
As I'm locked in these towers
So I'll meet my death
But with my last breath I'll sing to him I love
And he'll se my face in another place
And with that the glass above.'

Cracked into a million bits
And she cried out, 'So the story fit
But then I could have guessed it all along
'Cause now some drama queen is gonna write a song for me.'
She went down to her little boat
And she broke the chains and began to float away
And as the blood froze in her veins she said,
'Well then that explains a thing or two
'Cause I know I'm the cursed one
I know I'm meant to die
Everyone else can watch as there dreams untie
So why can't I

And it's raining
And the stars are falling from the sky
And the wind
And the wind I know it's cold
I've been waiting
For the day I will surely die
And it's here
And it's here
And it's here
And it's here
And it's here
It's finally here

And it's raining
And the stars are falling from the sky
And the wind
And the wind I know it's cold
I've been waiting
For the day I will surely die
And it's here
And it's here for I've been told
That I'll die before I'm old
And the wind I know it's cold...

Gothic Lolita Lyrics – Emilie autumn

How old are you?
I'm older than you'll ever be
I've been dead a thousand years
And lived only two or three
I don't mind telling you
My life was ended by your hand
The kind of murder where nobody dies
But I don't suppose you'd understand
(Call off the search, we've found her)

If I am Lolita
Then you are a criminal
And you should be killed
By an army of little girls
The law won't arrest you
The world won't detest you
You never did anything
Any man wouldn't do
I'm Gothic Lolita
And you are a criminal
I'm not even legal
I'm just a dead little girl
But ruffles and laces
And candy sweet faces
Directed your furtive hand
I perfectly understand
So it's my fault?
No, Gothic Lolita

Thank you, kind sirs
You made me what I am today
A bundle of broken nerves
A mouthful of words
I'm still afraid to say
I don't mind telling you
Now that I'm old enough to love
I couldn't begin to
Even if my pretty life depended on it
And funny thing, it does
(Call off the search, we've found her)

If I am Lolita
Then you are a criminal
And you should be killed
By an army of little girls
The law won't arrest you
The world won't detest you
You never did anything
Any man wouldn't do
I'm Gothic Lolita
And you are a criminal
I'm not even legal
I'm just a dead little girl
But ruffles and laces
And candy sweet faces
Directed your furtive hand
I perfectly understand
So it's my fault?
No, Gothic Lolita

I am your sugar
I am your cream
I am your anti American dream

I am your sugar
I am your cream
I am your anti American dream

I am your sugar
I am your cream
I am your anti American dream

I am your sugar
I am your cream
I am your worst nightmare
Now scream
(Call off the search, we've found her)

If I am Lolita
Then you are a criminal
And you should be killed
By an army of little girls
The law won't arrest you
The world won't detest you
You never did anything
Any man wouldn't do
I'm Gothic Lolita
And you are a criminal
I'm not even legal
I'm just a dead little girl
But ruffles and laces
And candy sweet faces
Directed your furtive hand
I perfectly understand
So it's my fault?
No, Gothic Lolita

Dead Is The New Alive Lyrics – Emilie autumn

Dead is the new alive
Despair's the new survival
A pointless point of view
Give in, give in, give in, give in
You play the game
You'll never win

Dead is the new alive
Life's only living rival
A casket built for two
Give in, give in, give in, give in
You play the game
You'll never win

So take me now or take me never
I won't wait
You're already late
So say goodbye or say forever
Choose your fate
How else can we survive?
Dead is the new alive

Dead is the new alive
A gothic play revival
The last act of the show
Give in, give in, give in, give in
You play the game
You'll never win

So take me now or take me never
I won't wait
You're already late
So say goodbye or say forever
Choose your fate
How else can we survive?
Dead is the new alive

What is day without a blessed night?
And what is peace without a blessed fight?
What is the day without a blessed night?
And what is peace without a blessed, blessed, blessed fight?

A quick taste of the poison
A quick twist of the knife
When the obsession with death
The obsession with death becomes a way of life

A quick taste of the poison
A quick twist of the knife
When the obsession with death
The obsession with death becomes a way of life

Alive, alive, alive
Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh
Alive, alive, alive
Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh
Alive, alive, alive
Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh
Alive, alive, alive
Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh

Dead is the new alive
Alive, alive, alive
Dead is the new alive
Alive, alive, alive
Alive
Dead is the new alive
Alive
Dead is the new alive

Dead is the new alive
Dead is the new alive
Dead is the new alive
Dead is the new alive
Dead is the new alive
Dead is the new alive
Dead is the new alive
Dead is the new alive

I Know Where You Sleep Lyrics – Emilie autumn

I know, the sickening thoughts that slither around your head
I know, the gluttonous guilt that buried me in your bed
Manipulate me if you can, go on and fool me like your biggest fan

I know, the arrogant pride that poisons the truth you hear
I know, the bigoted tongue that tears apart all your fears
Pontificate, you faded star, go on and show them who you really are

You can lie to the papers
You can hide from the press
You can fake it on stage
Crawl from your cage
Search and destroy
You can kill and depend on it
I know your tainted flesh
I know your filthy soul
I know each trick you played
Whore you laid
Dream you stole
I know the bed in the room in the wall
In the house where you got what you wanted and ruined it all
I know the secrets that you keep
I know where you sleep

I know, the illness behind the image that you create
I know, the tedious need to turn all your love into hate
You poor pathetic paranoid, is it just me or do you secretly enjoy it?

You can lie to the papers
(You can lie)
You can hide from the press
(You can hide)
You can fake it on stage
(Fake)
Crawl from your cage
(Crawl)
Search and destroy
(Search)
You can kill and depend on it
(Kill)
I know your tainted flesh
(You can hide)
I know your filthy soul
(You can hide)
I know each trick you played
(You can fake it if you try)
Whore you laid
Dream you stole
I know the bed in the room in the wall
In the house where you got what you wanted and ruined it all
I know the secrets that you keep
I know where you sleep

Sleep, Sleep, Sleep

You play the victim very well
You build yourself indulgent hell
You wanted someone to understand you
Well be careful what you wish for because I do
You've got a fancy turn of phrase
You set your trap
You made your plays
You're so fond of games
You must never lose
Funny how the only one in your bed is you

You can lie to the papers
You can hide from the press
You can lie to the papers
You can hide from the press
(Fake, crawl, search, kill)
You can lie to the papers
You can hide from the press
Fake, crawl, search, kill

Oh my god, Oh my god
I touched you
I can never live it down
I can never live it down
God save the queen
I loved you
I can never live it down
I can never live it down
Oh, oh, I fucked you
I can never live it down
I can never live it down
I can never live it down

I know the sickening thoughts that slither around your head
I know the gluttonous guilt that buried me in your - shh! - bed

You can lie to the papers
You can hide from the press
You can fake it on stage
Crawl from your cage
Search and destroy
You can kill and depend on it
I know your tainted flesh
I know your filthy soul
I know each trick you played
Whore you laid
Dream you stole
I know the bed in the room in the wall
In the house where you got what you wanted and ruined it
I know the bed in the room in the wall
In the house where you got what you wanted and ruined it
I know the bed in the room in the wall
In the house where you got what you wanted and ruined it all
I know the secrets that you keep
I know where you sleep

I'm wishing you the best of luck and by the way
(Your poetry sucks)
I'm wishing you the best of luck and by the way
(Your poetry sucks)
I'm wishing you the best of luck and by the way
(Your poetry sucks)
I'm wishing you the best of luck and by the way

Let The Record Show Lyrics – Emilie autumn

Turning tricks with absent guile
Reeling in your crooked smile
Why did I turn to you?
I only wanted a hand to pour my heart into
And now I'll bump my grind through another night
Lose my mind in another fight
Why did I turn to you?
I only gave you the chance to prove the rumours true
And now I'm paying with my
Paying with my life
I'm paying with my life
My life, my life

So let the record show
That you murdered me
In your coldest blood
With your own two hands
Don't think no one understands
It happens every day

Working life like a burlesque show
Get them off and they'll let you go
Why did I turn to you?
I only turned out to be just one more girl you slew
And now I'll bump my grind for another
Lose my mind in another
Why, why, why, why?
I only gave you the chance to prove the rumours true
And now I'm paying with my
Paying with my life
I'm paying with my life
My life, my life

So let the record show
That you murdered me
In your coldest blood
With your own two hands
Don't think no one understands
It happens every day

You're jealous
Oh, you're jealous
Why it's a simple excuse
For a complex crime
So write this on your soul
Or don't waste my time

If I'm going down
Then I'm going down good
I'm going down
Then I'm going down clean
I'm going down
Then I'm going
The prettiest broken girl you've ever seen
If I'm going down
Then I'm going down good
I'm going down
Then I'm going down clean
I'm going down
Then I'm going
The prettiest wretched whore you've ever seen

But while I breathe
I've got no evidence to prove my end
And so you'll walk away
Nope, wrong again!

So let the record show
That you murdered me
In your coldest blood
With your own two hands
Don't think no one understands
It happens every day

You're jealous
Oh, you're jealous
Why it's a simple excuse
For a complex crime
So write this on your soul

And let it show
That you murdered me
In your coldest blood
With your own two hands
Don't think no one understands
It happens every day

You're jealous
Oh, you're jealous
Why it's a simple excuse
For a complex crime
So write this on your soul
Or don't waste my time

306 Lyrics – Emilie autumn

Three hundred and six
In only six years
If it was an accident
Where are the tears?
I am still unidentified
Behind the cathedral
Is where my body hides
But I'm not inside
Just one of sixteen
In early one day
If it was a game
Why couldn't I play?
I am the abandoner
But still I remain
And my frozen pulse quickens
As the black plot thickens

Like the story I heard
A lifetime ago
Where a girl (and this is funny)
Took her life
And what she doesn't know
Is how long it takes for the water to rise
And the breath to stop fighting
And the cold to close her eyes

Morality plays
On stages of sin
The easy way out
Or the easy way in
I am still overglorified
My reasons to live
Were my reasons to die
But at least they were mine
Now I'm freedom unbound
Cut the laces of life
The pistol
The poison
The noose
Or the knife
I have chosen my instrument
And said no goodbyes
And my frozen pulse quickens
As the black plot thickens

Like the story I heard
A lifetime ago
Where a girl (and this is funny)
Took her life
And what she doesn't know
Is how long it takes for the water to rise
And the breath to stop fighting
And the cold to close her eyes

Thank God I'm Pretty Lyrics – Emilie autumn

Thank God I'm pretty
The occasional free drink I never asked for
The occasional admission to a seedy little bar
Invitation to a stranger's car
I'm blessed
With the ability to rend a grown man tongue-tied
Which only means that when it's dark outside
I have to run and hide can't look behind me
Thank God I'm pretty

Thank God I'm pretty
Every skill I ever have will be in question
Every ill that I must suffer merely brought on by myself
Though the cops would come for someone else
I'm blessed
I'm truly privilaged to look this good without clothes on
Which only means that when I sing you're jerking off
And when I'm gone you won't remember
Thank God I'm pretty

Thank you God
Oh, lord
Thank you God
Oh, oh and when a gaggle of faces appears around me
It's lucky I hate to be taken seriously
I think my ego would fall right through the cracks in the floor
If I couldn't count on men to slap my ass anymore
I know my destiny's such, that I'm all stocking and curl
So everybody thinks that I'm a fucking suicide girl

Thank you God
For the occasional champagne I never asked for
The occasional admission to a seedy little bar
Invitation to a stranger's car
I'm blessed
With the ability to rend a grown man tongue-tied
Which only means that when it's dark outside
I have to run and hide can't look behind me
Thank God I'm pretty

Thank God
Thank God
Thank you
Thank you
Thank you God!

Marry Me Lyrics – Emilie autumn

Marry me, he said, through his rotten teeth, bad breath, and then
Marry me instead of that strapping young goatherd, but when
I was in his bed, and my father had sold me
I knew I hadn't any choice, hushed my voice, did what any girl would do and
When I'm beheaded at least I was wedded
And when I am buried at least I was married
I'll hide my behavior with wine as my savior

But, oh, what beautiful things I'll wear
What beautiful dresses and hair
I'm lucky to share his bed
Especially since I'll soon be dead

Marry me, he said, god, he's ugly, but fortune is ours
Running in the gardens enjoying men, women, and flowers
Then I break a glass and I slit my own innermost thigh
So that I can pretend that I'm menstru...well, unavailable
My life is arranged but this union's deranged
So I'll fuck who I choose for I've nothing to lose
And when master's displeased I'll be down on my knees again

Oh, what beautiful things I'll wear
What beautiful dresses and hair
I'm lucky to share his bed
Especially since I'll soon be dead

When dining on peacock I know I won't swallow
Through balls, births, and bridge games I know what will follow
We're coupled together through hell, hurt, and hunger
Or at least until husband finds someone younger
Yes, fertilization is part of my station
I laugh as he drabs me in anticipation
Of sons who will run things when I'm under covers
But whose children are they? Why, mine and my lover's!

But, oh, what beautiful things I'll wear
What beautiful dresses and hair
I'm lucky to share his bed
Especially since I'll soon be dead
What beautiful things I'll wear
What beautiful dresses and hair
I'm lucky to share his bed
So why do I wish I was...

Poem: How To Break A Heart Lyrics – Emilie autumn

How to break a heart
It is not difficult
Anyone can do it
So could you, if you tried
Just find a light
And switch it off
As easy as blinking
That's what I was taught
When I was too young to ask
By ladies in white nightgowns
In dripping weeds and black ribbons
A girl's best friend is a small handgun
The question was useless
For I could say yes
But you've got to ask my army
And they are not inclined to grant favours just now

Poem: Ghost Lyrics – Emilie autumn

Ghost,
Did you know sometimes it frightens me
when you say my name and I can't see you
will you ever learn to materialize before you speak
impetuous boy, if that's what you really are
how many centuries since you've climbed a balcony
or do you do this every night with someone else
you tell me that you never leave
and I am almost afraid to believe it
why is it me you've chosen to follow
did you like the way I look when I am sleeping
was my hair more fun to tangle
are my dreams more entertaining
do you laugh when I'm complaining that I'm all alone
where were you when I searched the sea
for a friend to talk to me
in a year where will you be
is it enough for you to steal into my mind
filling up my page with music written in my hand
you know I'll take the credit for I must have made you come to me somehow
but please try to close the curtains when you leave at night
or I'll have to find someone to stay and warm me
will you always attend my midnight tea parties
as long as I set your place
if one day your sugar sits untouched
will you have gone forever
would you miss me in a thousand years
when you will dry another's tears
but you say you'll never leave me
and I wonder if you'll have the decency
to pass through my wall to the next room
while I dress for dinner
but when I'm stuck in conversation
with stuffed shirts whose adoration
hurts my ears, where are you then
can't you cut in when I dance with other men
it's too late not to interfere with my life
you've already made me a most unsuitable wife
for any man who wants to be the first his bride has slept with
and you can't just fly into people's bedrooms
then expect them to calmly wave goodbye
you've changed the course of history
and didn't even try
where are you now
standing behind me
taking my hand
come and remind me
who you are
have you traveled far
are you made of stardust too
are the angels after you
tell me what I am to do
but until then I'll save your side of the bed
just come and sing me to sleep

Poem: At What Point Does A Shakespeare Say Lyrics – Emilie autumn

At what point does a Shakespeare say
I feel it's time I write a play
What subject shall it be today
A tragedy I've done

Lovers twain have been united
Audiences are delighted
No doubt I shall soon be knighted
Royal fame I've won

The Queen has come to every show
And, flattering, she feigns to know
A couplet from a verse, also
A refrain from a rhyme

But the ones I aim to pleaseth
Most of all upon my kneeseth
Are the folk who cough and sneezeth
Through my prose sublime

"Enchant" (2003)




Prologue: Across The Sky Lyrics – Emilie autumn

What is your substance?
Whereof are you made,
That millions of strange shadows on you tend?
Since everyone, have everyone, one shade
And you, but one, can every shadow lend

See beyond the moment
Think beyond the day
Hear the word
My voice will not be cast away
Fatalistic fortune
Ever near the end
Love goes on
But time does not return again

Across the sky
I will come for you
If you ask me to
Demystify
Your uncommon dreams
Stranger things have come true

Fear no more the midnight
Fear no more the sea
Close your eyes, regret nothing
You're safe with me
Look into the shadows
Step into the mist
Search your land but doubt never
I still exist

Across the sky
I will come for you
If you ask me to
Demystify
Your uncommon dreams
Stranger things have come
Across the sky
I will come for you
If you ask me to
Demystify
Your uncommon dreams
Stranger things have come true

Ask yourself: is this all there is?
Take no answer but the one you find
I have put my faith in aberrations of your kind
But even if you're in my mind

Across the sky
I will come to you
If you ask me to
Demystify
Your uncommon dreams
Stranger things have come
(Across the sky)
Should we hear the silence?
Should we hear the noise?
(I will come for you)
I don't need this blind acceptance
I have made my choice
(If you ask me to)
(Demystify)
Light lives in the darkness
Beauty lives in pain
(Your uncommon dreams)
In destruction we may lose ourselves
But still I will remain
(Stranger things have come true)
Across the sky
Across the sky

See beyond the moment
Think beyond the day
Hear the word
Hear the word
Hear the word
Hear the word

How Strange Lyrics – Emilie autumn

When you are sleeping do you dream of me
How strange, how strange
'Cause you know what they say
About the visions in your head and what they mean
How strange, how strange
That you should feel that way

I'm not living in an ordinary world
'Cause I'm not your ordinary good girl
And I don't believe in playing like I know that game
You're not heading for an ordinary love
'Cause I'm not the one that you should think of
And I'm not a prize that you can claim

You know I think it's strange
Just a little bit deranged
That you think I'm gonna change to make you happy
If you can tell me why
I should wait around then I
May be coming down
But until then this means
You can see me in your dreams

When you are sleeping do you
When you are sleeping do you
When you are sleeping do you dream
How strange

I'm more than happy in my candlelight
How strange, how strange
That you should come to my dominion
In the middle of the darkest night
How strange, how strange
That you should even try

I'm not living in an ordinary world
'Cause I'm not your ordinary good girl
And I don't believe in playing like I know that game
You're not heading for an ordinary love
'Cause I'm not the one that you should think of
And I'm not a prize that you can claim

You know I think it's strange
Just a little bit deranged
That you think I'm gonna change to make you happy
If you can tell me why
I should wait around then I
May be coming down
But until then this means
You can see me in your dreams

Just a little bit deranged
That you think I'm gonna change to make you happy
If you can tell me why
I should wait around then I
May be coming down
But until then this means
You can see me

Supernatural, yes it's true
Tell me what are you gonna do
About this love
Are you strong enough
To love me for the way I am
I don't think you understand
That you can't hold me in your hand
If you want me
You had better find a way to show me
But don't you think you know me
'Cause I'm not looking for a boy to call my own
I'll do just fine alone

You know I think it's strange
Just a little bit deranged
That you think I'm gonna change to make you happy
If you can tell me why
I should wait around then I
May be coming down
But until then this means
You can see me in your dreams

You know I think it's strange
That you think I'm gonna change to make you happy
If you can tell me why
I should wait around then I
May be coming down
But until then this means
You can see me in your dreams

I don't come when you call
I don't try to be nice
I don't care afterall
I don't take your advice
I don't answer your prayers
I don't do as you say
Love if you really care
You'd better find another way

You know I think it's strange
That you think I'm gonna change to make you happy
If you can tell me why
I should wait around then I
May be coming down
But until then this means
You can see me in your dreams

When you are sleeping do you
When you are sleeping do you
When you are sleeping do you dream

Chambermaid Lyrics – Emilie autumn

Show your face
Don't hide
Take off the mask now
Underneath is a deep dark secret
Take me for a ride
Upon your white horse
Take your love
'Cause I don't want to keep it

I am out of place
And honey you are out of time
I'd tell your fortune
But the words don't rhyme

I'm not your chambermaid
You're not my lord
All the fine games we played
Have left me bored
I never want to see you come around my castle
'Cause I just can't afford to love you
I'm not your chambermaid
You're not my lord

Tell me what I have to do to make you
Understand it's a lost cause lover
Tell me while you're at it how it feels to
Hold me close when you've been thinking of her
I don't want to hear you say you love me
You've been gone such a long time
Won't you turn around
Before I have to see this
Face I once adored
Don't you see

I am out of place
And honey you are out of time
I'd tell your fortune
But the words don't rhyme

I'm not your chambermaid
You're not my lord
All the fine games we played
Have left me bored
I never want to see you come around my castle
'Cause I just can't afford to love you
I'm not your chambermaid
You're not my lord

You have no hold over me
What's in your cards now? Let me see
I hope you've got what you wanted
There's just one thing I know will never be
(Never, ever be)

I'm not your chambermaid
You're not my lord
All the fine games we played
Have left me bored
I never want to see you come around my castle
'Cause I just can't afford to love you
I'm not your chambermaid
No, no
I'm not your chambermaid
You're not my lord
All the fine games we played
Have left me bored
I never want to see you come around my castle
'Cause I just can't afford to love you
I'm not your chambermaid
(You're not my lord)
I'm not your chambermaid
You're not my lord
All the fine games we played
Have left me bored
I never want to see you come around my castle
'Cause I just can't afford to love you
I'm not your chambermaid
You're not my lord

Rapunzel Lyrics – Emilie autumn

In the court yard
use to sing as loud as she could
locked away here
she's been quite lovely and good
but no one listens now
she's lost her voice
she had no choice

if you sing loud and clear
someone passing by
will surely hear you
no you can't be afraid
if you ever want
somebody hear you
if you sing loud and clear
someone passing by
will surely hear you
no you can't be afraid

tour the curtain
put her hand outside
of the frame
let her hair down
sang all day
and nobody came
but when the sun went down
the stars came out
she heard them shout

if you sing loud and clear
someone passing by
will surely hear you
no you can't be afraid
if you ever want
somebody hear you
if you sing loud and clear
someone passing by
will surely hear you
no you can't be afraid

but when the sun went down the stars came out she heard them shout

if you sing loud and clear
someone passing by
will surely hear you
no you can't be afraid
if you ever want
somebody hear you
if you sing loud and clear
someone passing by
will surely hear you
no you can't be afraid

Ever Lyrics – Emilie autumn

I've been racing for you, honey
But you take your love
From under my feet
The very moment I arrive
I hold the invitation in my hand
You smile and I don't understand
When you tell me the writing ain't yours
You were the one thing I could count on
Even if your apathy was what I expected
Oh, darling, I waited and waited to feel your footsteps
And to hear your breath
But maybe I just wanted someone to wait for

You were ever in my mind
You were behind my soul each time
I held it to the flame
You were ever in my precious thoughts
I'd leave a room of angels
Just to be alone
If only to say your name
I never told you I needed you, darling
Like a rose needs the rain
How could you possibly know how much?
So I reach for your love
Like the moon and the stars
Ever in my sight
Ever out of touch

There's a spotlight of a holy kind
Think it comes from somewhere
Up in the sky or from some far off, lovely place
But this light never, ever, ever shone on me
At least as far as I could see
So I sat in the dark and I watched you
Now I just cry to myself
When there's no one around
And I teach myself to walk backwards
Out of any given situation
Yes, I can be graceful and try
Not to step on my train and
You don't have to say goodbye
But I'll be right here if you want to

You were ever in my mind
You were behind my soul each time
I held it to the flame
You were ever in my precious thoughts
I'd leave a room of angels
Just to be alone
If only to say your name
I never told you I needed you, darling
Like a rose needs the rain
How could you possibly know how much?
So I reach for your love
Like the moon and the stars
Ever in my sight
Ever out of touch

Now, I could paint your portrait
If I never saw you again
When I am old someone may ask me
If I ever loved
And I will speak but they won't recognize
My words, they'll say I'm telling lies
And maybe I am
Maybe I am
All I know is

You were ever in my mind
You were behind my soul each time
I held it to the flame
You were ever in my precious thoughts
I'd leave a room of angels
Just to be alone
If only to say your name
I never told you I needed you, darling
Like a rose needs the rain
How could you possibly know how much?
So I reach for your love
Like the moon and the stars
Ever in my sight
Ever out of touch
I never told you I needed you, darling
Like a rose needs the rain
How could you possibly know how much?
So I reach for your love
Like the moon and the stars
Ever in my sight
Ever out of touch

Second Hand Faith Lyrics – Emilie autumn

I'll take my hope where I can find it
Seems I find it here in you
Hang your curtain get behind it
I won't even ask for proof
Go ahead and read my fortune
Cast your dice devine my fate
I just want to know I have one
Tell me that it's not too late for
A little second hand faith
A line upon my palm that I can't just erase
'Cause I need to believe in a hierarchic grace
I can do without a book I'll never read
Second hand faith is all I need
I will pay you for your trouble
I will pay you for your time
Steal my wallet, charge me double
All I've come for is a sign
Is there someone who can help me?
Up above the clouds I see
Sitting in a Chinese restaurant
Someone comes to offer me
A little second hand faith
A line upon my palm that I can't just erase
'Cause I need to believe in a hierarchic grace
I can do without a book I'll never read
Second hand faith is all I need
'Cause this feeling of forgiveness means much more to me
Than that paper on the wall that cost you all of ten bucks
If an ancient word, a heathen spell can salvage me
I will believe in miracles 'cause it would take a saint to set me free
And if my luck don't last too long
Or if my life gets worse
I'll be back for another song
A blessing or a curse
And I'll never ask for refunds
'Cause I know you're not to blame
Take more blood, more hair, more money
I'll do anything to claim
A little second hand faith
A line upon my palm that I can't just erase
'Cause I need to believe in a hierarchic grace
I can do without a book I'll never read
Second hand faith is all I need
Is a little second hand faith
A line upon my palm that I can't just erase
'Cause I need to believe in a hierarchic grace
What somebody threw away
May just get me through the day
I can do without a book I'll never read
Second hand faith is all I need
Second hand faith is all I need
Is all I need
Is all I

Juliet Lyrics – Emilie autumn

You're in my stars you know
Don't need no crystal ball to tell me so
Whispering in the air
Hoping that my words find you somewhere
Even when I close my eyes
I'll never recreate the Time that flies
The consequence is hanging there
The sky will fall but I don't care

Meet me beneath my balcony and say
"No one but you could ever fill my night"
Be the sunlight in my every day
Underneath my balcony I'll say
"No one but you could ever fill my night"
Be the sunlight in my every day

Your love is haunting me
And all I want is more to set me free
Whispering in the air
Hoping that my words find you somewhere
Do you hear me call your name
I know we will never be the same
The consequence is hanging there
The sky will fall but I don't care

Meet me beneath my balcony and say
"No one but you could ever fill my night
Be the sunlight in my every day"
Underneath my balcony I'll say
"No one but you could ever fill my night
Be the sunlight in my every day"

Remember Lyrics – Emilie autumn

Like a dream I had in subconscious deep
Here you come again only in my sleep
And I remember you
I remember you

Like a memory of a time gone by
Many things I've seen still I can't deny
That I remember you
Yes I remember the things you do to me

When you say my name
When you hold my hand
When you whisper in my ear the things
That only you could understand
When you say my name
When you hold my hand
When you touch me softly in the way
That only you can do
I remember you
I remember you

Every other touch runs as cold as ice
If I get too close I may pay the price
But I remember you
Yes I remember the things you do to me

When you say my name
When you hold my hand
When you whisper in my ear the things
That only you could understand
When you say my name
When you hold my hand
When you touch me softly in the way
That only you can do
I remember you

I would recognize your shadow in a crowded room
Change your name a million times, it wouldn't change my mind
Or what I hope to find in your heart underneath
In a new rhythm I breathe 'cause I remember you
I remember you
I remember you
I remember you
Yes I do

When you say my name
When you hold my hand
When you whisper in my ear the things
That only you could understand
When you say my name
When you hold my hand
When you touch me softly in the way
That only you can do
[Repeat]

I remember you
I remember you
I remember you
And I want you to say my name
I remember you
And I want you to say my name
Say my name
Say my name
Say my name...I remember

Rose Red Lyrics – Emilie autumn

Rose, Rose, Rose, Red
Will I ever see thee wed?
I will marry at thy will sir,
At thy will

A thousand years gone by
Too late to wonder why
I'm here alone
If in my darkest hour
She rose that fell a flower
I should have known

Rose, Rose, Rose, Red
Will I ever see thee wed?
Only if you can capture me

Tell me no more stories
And I'll tell you no lies
No one wants to hurt me
But everybody tries
And if you think that I've been waiting
For my planets to align
It's time you go on
Get your things, get up, get out
I'm doing fine, yeah yeah

Someday these walls will speak
The floors beneath you creek
To call my name
Here in my web of dreams
My whispers turn to screams
And place the blame

Rose, Rose, Rose, Red
Will I ever see thee wed?
Only if you discover me

Tell me no more stories
And I'll tell you no lies
No one wants to hurt me
But everybody tries
And if you think that I've been waiting
For my planets to align
It's time you go on
Get your things, get up, get out
I'm doing fine, yeah yeah
Tell me no more stories
And I'll tell you no lies
No one wants to hurt me
But everybody tries
And if you think that I've been waiting
For my planets to align
It's time you go on
Get your things, get up, get out
I'm doing fine, yeah yeah

For this freedom
I have given all I had
For this darkness
I gave my light
For this wisdom
I have lost my innocence
Take my petals
And cover me with the night

Tell me no more stories
And I'll tell you no lies
No one wants to hurt me
But everybody tries
And if you think that I've been waiting
For my planets to align
It's time you go on
Get your things, get up, get out, get out, get out
I'm doing fine, yeah yeah
Tell me no more stories
And I'll tell you no lies
No one wants to hurt me
But everybody tries
And if you think that I've been waiting
For my planets to align
It's time you go on
Get your things, get up, get out
I'm doing fine, yeah yeah
Tell me no more stories
And I'll tell you no lies
No one wants to hurt me
But everybody tries
And if you think that I've been waiting
For my planets to align
It's time you go on
Get your things, get up, get out
I'm doing fine, yeah yeah
Tell me no more stories
And I'll tell you no lies
No one wants to hurt me
But everybody tries
And if you think that I've been waiting
For my planets to align
It's time you go on
Get your things, get up, get out
I'm doing fine, yeah yeah
Yeah, yeah

Castle Down Lyrics – Emilie autumn

You can see that I swim
Through the sea of painful
You have watched as I pulled
Myself from the floor

And you were there when I
Built my tower like pebbles in the rain
Trying to balance all that I had left
With what I didn't have any more

And would you tear my castle down
Stone by stone
And let the wind run through my windows
'Til there is nothing left but a battered rose

And would you tear my castle down
Stone by stone
And let the wind run through my windows
'Til there is nothing left but a battered rose

You seem so devoted
Your love is unconditional
You were self-promoted
I never asked you

You were my everything
My apparitional faith
Where are you when I am
Screaming to my god what am I coming to

And would you tear my castle down
Stone by stone
And let the wind run through my windows
'Til there is nothing left but a battered rose

And would you tear my castle down
Stone by stone
And let the wind run through my windows
'Til there is nothing left but a battered rose

If I had another place to go
Would you break me, is it that you know
I have no choice but to rebuild again
I'm tied so hard I can't remember when
I last walked free upon these feet of mine

But I'll draw the line
There will come a time
When I am stronger
Your words won't hurt any longer

And would you tear my castle down
Stone by stone
And let the wind run through my windows
'Til there is nothing left but a battered rose

And would you tear my castle down
Stone by stone
And let the wind run through my windows
'Til there is nothing left but a battered rose

And would you tear my castle down
Stone by stone
And let the wind run through my windows
'Til there is nothing left but a battered rose

And would you tear my castle down
Stone by stone
And let the wind run through my windows
'Til there is nothing left
'Til there is nothing, nothing left
'Til there is nothing left

Would you tear my castle down
Would you tear my castle down
Would you tear my castle down

Heard It All Lyrics – Emilie autumn

I heard a story
It's too hard to mention
I heard a thing once
I can't even say
I had a moment
Of doubtful suspension
But it's almost forgotten
It's been pulled away

By too many hands
Touching where I stand
And I can't fall
Because you'll try and catch me
Never let me go
You don't think I know
I've heard it all
And so you'll never scratch my skin

I heard a boy say
It's all my invention
A fictional statement
It's all in my head
All I can tell you
My only pretension
Was in thinking you listened
To me when I said

There's too many hands
Touching where I stand
And I can't fall
Because you'll try and catch me
Never let me go
You don't think I know
I've heard it all
And so you'll never scratch me
There's just too many hands
Touching where I stand
And I can't fall
Because you'll try and catch me
Never let me go
You don't think I know
I've heard it all
And so you'll never scratch me

I've heard your paltering and your lies
And it won't go away when I close my eyes
Do you think of me when I'm nowhere near?
When you shut your mouth tell me what you hear
I've heard it all
I've heard it all
I've heard it

Somebody called me
A paranoid angel
From on the other
Side of the wall
You might be special
But it's too late to change now
'Cause it isn't the first time
I've heard it all
For too many years
To relieve my fears
So I'm advising you
To get away and fast
If it's my mistake
Then the blame I'll take
You're not the first
And you won't be the last

I've seen too many hands
Touching where I stand
And I can't fall
Because you'll try and catch me
Never let me go
You don't think I know
I've heard it all
And so you'll never scratch me
There's just too many hands
Touching where I stand
And I can't fall
Because you'll try and catch me
Never let me go
You don't think I know
I've heard it all
And so you'll never scratch me
I've heard it all
And so you'll never scratch me
I've heard it all
And so you'll never scratch me
I've heard it all
And so you'll never scratch my skin

If You Feel Better Lyrics – Emilie autumn

If you feel better
Telling me I'm cruel
Saying I'm unfeeling
I don't mind
If it's necessary
If it helps you out
Crying that I'm heartless
It's alright

And I'm sorry to cause you so much pain
And I'm sorry to bring you down again
But I've reached the end and I won't fight anymore
I don't know what you really want from me
But I don't fit in your reality
How can any man be so blind?
But if you feel better
I don't mind

If you feel safer
Keeping to yourself
Placing trust in no one
I won't cry
If it calms your conscience
Making me the guilty one
Take my reputation
Ain't worth much
And it's alright

And I'm sorry to cause you so much pain
And I'm sorry to bring you down again
But I've reached the end and I won't fight anymore
I don't know what you really want from me
But I don't fit in your reality
How can any man be so blind?
But if you feel better
I don't mind
And I'm sorry to cause you so much pain
And I'm sorry to bring you down again
But I've reached the end and I won't fight anymore
I don't know what you really want from me
But I don't fit in your reality
How can any man be so blind?
But if you feel better
I don't mind

Won't make me sorry 'cause I'm cruel
Won't hurt the feelings I don't have
Won't break the heart that isn't there you'll find
But if you feel better
Telling me I'm cruel
Saying I'm unfeeling
I don't mind
I don't mind
I don't mind

Save You Lyrics – Emilie autumn

How do I save you from a fate so sweet
As being torn to pieces by a loving hand?
How do I save you from a voice so soft
As that which acquiesces to your each demand?
How do I look upon the eyes I love
And send them down this path? I know it isn't right
How do I make you realize, my love
That there is more to fear than strangers in the night?

How do I save you?
How do I set you free?
Behind the curtain waits a darker world
If I can't make you leave
How can I save you from me?

I think you've had enough experience
To differentiate between a heart of gold
And what you cradle in your gentle arms
Can you not recognize a soul already sold?
How do I save you from the things I've been?
I can't deny the past, it's written on my face
How do I save you from the mess you're in
When I can't make you leave this torturous embrace?

How do I save you?
How do I set you free?
Behind the curtain waits a darker world
If I can't make you leave
How can I save you, save you from me?
How do I set you...
How do I save you?
How do I set you free?
Behind the curtain waits a darker world
If I can't make you leave
How can I save you from me?
How do I save you?
How do I set you free?
Behind the curtain waits a darker world
If I can't make you leave
How can I save you from me?

Epilogue: What If - emilie autumn

Here you sit in your high-backed chair
Wonder how the view is from there
I wouldn't know 'cause I like to sit
Upon the floor, yeah upon the floor
If you like we could play a game
Let's pretend that we are the same
But you will have to look much closer
Than you do, closer than you do

And I'm far too tired to stay here anymore
And I don't care what you think anyway
'Cause I think you were wrong about me
Yeah, what if you were, what if you were?

And what if I'm a snowstorm burning?
What if I'm a world unturning?
What if I'm an ocean, far too shallow, much too deep?
What if I'm the kindest demon,
Something you may not believe in?
What if I'm a siren singing gentlemen to sleep?

I know you've got it figured out
Tell me what I am all about
And I just might learn a thing or two
Hundred about you, maybe about you
I'm the end of your telescope
I don't change just to suit your vision
'Cause I am bound by a fraying rope
Around my hands, tied around my hands

And you close your eyes when I say I'm breaking free
And put your hands over both your ears
Because you cannot stand to believe I'm not
The perfect girl you thought
Well what have I got to lose?

And what if I'm a weeping willow
Laughing tears upon my pillow?
What if I'm a socialite who wants to be alone?
What if I'm a toothless leopard?
What if I'm a sheepless shepherd?
What if I'm an angel without wings to take me home?

You don't know me
Never will, never will
I'm outside your picture frame
And the glass is breaking now
You can't see me
Never will, never will
If you're never gonna see

What if I'm a crowded desert,
Too much pain with little pleasure?
What if I'm the nicest place you never want to go?
What if I don't know who I am?
Will that keep us both from trying
To find out and when you have
Be sure to let me know

What if I'm a snowstorm burning?
What if I'm a world unturning?
What if I'm an ocean, far too shallow, much too deep?
What if I'm the kindest demon,
Something you may not believe in?
What if I'm a siren singing gentlemen to sleep?
Sleep
Sleep

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